Friday, December 1, 2023

The golden bird gone missing


There was no one day when I realized 
I wasn't any special. 
Work happily told of the many tiny pearls 
in the sea, that they are all beautiful. 

There was no one day when I realized 
I wasn't my young self anymore.
With a knowing smile, Hope again pointed to Grace 
playing hide and seek along the inevitable course of nature.

There was no one day when I realized 
Powers that give you life die or leave
Experience whispered heavily that trudging on
somehow comes off as dignified.

Near the mesmerizing statue,
the golden bird was gone one day.
Wisdom came to console me.
But I was inconsolable that day.


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Tuesday, September 13, 2022

Funnies + Campus + Early middle age


I noticed a good pile of dog shit today while walking to the office on campus, and marveled at how nicely cylindrical and well-held together it was.


Thursday, March 4, 2021

The moral dubiousness of modern society // The Florida Project

O God,
make me as big as you.
Sometimes I just can't take it.
In the middle of all the right and wrong,
it's heart-breaking for a small soul
to make any head or tail of it 
At all.

The wise men tell me
I should be floating along
but this sinking feeling sometimes
seems to be everywhere
I look. the good feels tarnished,
the lotus is blind

I come to you now, can you make
it right and no wrong?
Being small, being blind
This feeling will pass over...

Tuesday, January 28, 2020

Tribute to Rumi's poem

There's somewhere a jewel hidden among dirt and rocks
What does it care for man-made names and definitions
It lies there out in the field beyond right and wrong
While the man-made world churns out inanities in droves

Saturday, January 18, 2020

The orphans at the Mall Arcade

At the mall, everyone was merry. People were trendily dressed. The place was loud, colourful, chockful on that Christmas day. The families and kids were packed into the small arcade. With all the game consoles, bright blinking lights, and electronic video game music, the place looked like a mix of a sci-fi show and a crowded well-to-do fair.

A man bumped into some kids and spilt his drink. The kids couldn't help laughing. The man silently cursed as the drink spoiled the leather phone cover.

In a corner near the entrance, X stood silently watching the crowd. The joyful excitement of the kids and the hint of mob ugliness felt odd. All the commotion and crowd was claustrophobic. The people seemed oblivious to any of this.

Directly in front of him was one of those coin-operated machines where a kid could scoop as many candies with an overhanging mechanical contraption with metallic pincers. This sweet, little girl just did that, her parents watching over her. Some other parents were by the side with their kids.

Out of nowhere, three kids ran into the arcade, shouting, as if in a melee, and attacked the mouth of the machine where the candies poured out. The sweet, little girl was confused for a moment but then put in her hand with equal gusto before these other kids could snatch all of her catch. The mother got incensed, rebuked them heavily that they should have asked. One of the watchers sympathized with them for being kids. The adults didn't have any impact on these three other kids. They backed up a little with their spoils but didn't leave in case there was another round. This time though the parent was guarded. Seeing this, the three kids ran away, shouting wildly, playacting their adventures on one console to another like X does when out of cash. Nothing in the world seemed to bother the hardy, scraggly kids in that gaudy arcade on that Christmas day.





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PS: Mall arcade in Banglore, Dec 25

Monday, October 28, 2019

Miracle and Explanation / Via Postal Mail

God came to me
the other day
via postal mail
Of all routes

And yet I did not
Accept the blessing
Looked for an explanation
When a simple miracle
would have done just fine

Still the urge remained
The urge is a blessing too
But then we often forget
Miracle and explanation
Are like familiar family cousins
Why pick favourites


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A miracle is not something that has no explanation. Rather it is something that requires no explanation. The soul just happens to be moved by it, mundane or otherwise.

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PS: inspired by Pujnan's 2018 bday gift "fiasco"

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Funnies + average + down

Today I realized how average I am: even when feeling down about it, there was no great hysteria, no severe depression, no suicidal thoughts. Just a dull background pall that could almost be ignored with some effort.